I Am Kurious Oranj Rar Now

My mother was a tree in a concrete yard. My father was the smog from a nearby rubber factory. I was conceived in a cough. The other fruits on my branch grew round and fat, dreaming of the juice bar, dreaming of the breakfast plate. They whispered of sweetness, of the simple, solar joy of being squeezed.

I was never a rarity.

Day seven: A child found me. A girl with mismatched socks and the hollow, searching eyes of someone who has already learned that adults lie. She did not see a rotten orange. She saw a world. She squatted down, her breath fogging the cool air, and whispered, “You’re a little planet, aren’t you?” I Am Kurious Oranj Rar

“Why is the color of joy the same as the color of prison jumpsuits?” I asked the grapefruit to my right. It said I had a complex.

This is the story you wanted, isn’t it? The deep one. The one about the fruit that achieved enlightenment through entropy. My mother was a tree in a concrete yard

It begins not with a seed, but with a rind. A tough, bitter, solar-orange rind that has been peeled back by a thumbnail caked with soil. Beneath it, the pith is a wound of white, and beneath that, the flesh is a universe of wet, segmented stars.

The day of the Harvest came. A hand, gloved in impersonal latex, plucked my siblings. They were loaded into a wire basket, laughing with a shrill, citrus terror. I held on. I flexed the tiny stem that connected me to the branch, the umbilical of lignin and sap. I held on until the hand moved on, dismissing me as a runt, a weird one, not worth the calorie of the pluck. The other fruits on my branch grew round

The silence after the Harvest was the first true music I ever heard. The wind sounded different. It sounded like a cello being played with a hacksaw.

Days passed. My skin softened. My internal clocks began to tick backwards. While other oranges grew sweeter, I grew bitter. Then, past bitter, I grew sharp . A single wasp, drunk on the fermenting juices of a fallen apple below, landed on my cheek. It did not sting. It bowed. It recognized a kindred spirit of decay.

The fall came. Not a dramatic plummet, but a tired loosening. I landed in a crack in the concrete, a hairline fracture filled with moss and the ghost of a cigarette. This was my stage.

She was right. I was. My peel was the crust, cracked and tectonic. The blue-gray mold was my atmosphere, a poisonous, beautiful sky. The tiny, wriggling larvae of a fruit fly were my first citizens. They had no politics, only hunger. It was a perfect anarchist society.