Marcus was in the back room, helping to set up for the weekly “Open Mic Night.” He wasn't performing; he was the unofficial sound tech, a role he’d inherited after the previous one, an elderly lesbian named Fran, had passed away two years ago. He adjusted the microphone stand to its lowest height, remembering when he’d first walked into the Raven’s Wing twenty-five years ago. Back then, he was a different person—literally. He was “Marsha,” a butch lesbian drowning in a body that felt like a costume. The LGBTQ+ culture he found in the 90s was a lifeline, but it was a culture still wrestling with its own internal politics. He remembered the cold shoulder from some lesbians who saw his transition as a betrayal, a “loss to the team.” But he also remembered the fierce, unwavering love from a small group of gay men and trans elders who saw him for who he truly was.
Kai nodded, not looking up.
The host looked over, saw Marcus’s steady gaze, and nodded.
Marcus smiled, a rare, full smile that crinkled the corners of his eyes. “None of us do, kid. That’s the whole point. The culture isn’t about having the right label. It’s about having a room where you’re allowed to ask the question.”
Finally, Kai whispered, “I don’t know what I am yet. Not completely.”
“The stage looks bigger from out there,” Marcus said, nodding toward the empty mic. “But it’s just a wooden floor. Everyone who stands on it has been terrified.”